music has always been a companion as much as it's a dagger embedded in my spine
why does it hurt so much it's only noise but my ears scream gushes of blood. razor littered kisses desecrate my wrists despite my attempts to fight it. it sticks to me like the stence of death on a corpse. sweet with flies spewing their maggoty filth over my dreams.
all that is left is to fall down deeper into the s p i r a l .
the lump in my thoat embraces me like a noose
and tonight the cold has never felt so warm.
against my bruised fingertips
charred and blistered like a rose
trying to make sense of my own madness locked in a house of a cage i do not know where for undisclosed years coated heavy with dust weight by miserbal regret tearing back layers of sickly sweet tinged flesh ripe with adolescent adipocere i just want to know they boy i was what went wrong what went wrog why is this happening i just dont know i thought i had it all figured out i thought i learned how to smile but the cracks shattered and stained my bloody palms as i lead salvation away from angels bloody sky my eyes roll back i want to go back i want to be back i was i was i was oh i was once so happy but discarded and gutted void carcass caress all is left all will be all is left all will be all is left all will be all is left all will be all is left all will be all is left all will be all is left all will be all is left all will be all is left all will be all is left all will be all is left all will be all is left all will be all is left all will be all is left all will be all is left all will be all is left all will be all is left all will be all is left all will be all is left all will be all is left all will be all is left all will be all is left all will be all is left all will be all is left all will be all is left all will be all is left all will be all is left all will be all is left all will be all is left all will be all is left all will be all is left all will be all is left all will be all is left all will be all is left all will be all is left all will be all is left all will be all is left all will be all is left all will be all is left all will be all is left all will be all is left all will be all is left all will be all is left all will be all is left all will be all is left all will be all is left all will be all is left all will be all is left all will be all is left all will be all is left all will be all is left all will be all is left all will be all is left all will be all is left all will be all is left all will be all is left all will be all is left all will be all is left all will be all is left all will be all is left all will be all is left all will be all is left all will be all is left all will be all is left all will be all is left all will be all is left all will be all is left all will be all is left all will be all is left all will be all is left all will be all is left all will be all is left all will be all is left all will be all is left all will be all is left all will be all is left all will be all is left all will be all is left all will be all is left all will be all is left all will be all is left all will be all is left all will be all is left all will be all is left all will be all is left all will be all is left all will be all is left all will be all is left all will be all is left all will be